In the last four months, I had to put my dog down and my sister’s cancer came back. This is the 4th time and she is only 35. When I was in the hospital with her, I found out I was pregnant. We didn’t plan it, but I was so excited. I went to my first doctor’s appointment and they told me there was no heartbeat. I was pregnant with twins. It’s just been turmoil lately.
I come from a dysfunctional family. We are close, but sometimes we are like oil and water. I try to give my sister all the love I can, but our relationship is tough. I’ve been bullied my whole life. As a teenager, I was overweight and had a lot of acne. I got rejected countless times and I struggled with depression. I spent a lot of time alone. I was insecure, a tomboy and I loved sports. Playing sports meant spending less time at home. I wasn’t clicky. There was not one click I clicked with. I was in my school band, but I felt like I wasn’t even a part of it. I left regular high school for continuation high school during my sophomore year. Instead of going to school for 8 hours, I went for 3. In return, with all the free time, I worked out and ate more nutritious meals. I lost weight and my acne went away. I worked 2 jobs and my GPA went from 1.2 to 4.0. I graduated with a Principal Honor Roll and 2 scholarships and my relationship with my family improved tremendously.
I’ve always been a softie and I let others be mean to me. I hate confrontations. I will walk away and try to stay positive. I strive for that and maybe I take it to the extreme. My friends sometimes wonder when I’m going to shake all that positive and be the real me. But this is the real me. I know that not every day is going to be great, but I can’t let the bad take me down. I tap into my inner strength when things go wrong. I learned that at a very young age.
I avoid people who talk badly about one another and I avoid bullies at all cost, even if it’s family. I realize that at the end of the day, those thoughts only make you feel bad. Every day is different, but I just want to be at peace. Staying happy when times are down and avoiding toxic people is very important in my rule book.
I moved away from my family. Through many different adventures, I ended up creating a talk show here in Las Vegas. It’s called Geeks R Sexy. I try to keep it positive. My guests talk about their passions; I try to find out what makes them smile. I want to know about their obstacles. I know that being kind is within us all. What means the most in life is what matters on the inside in our hearts. Different obstacles will hit you in the face and they will make you stronger and ‘thicker skinned’. ‘When shit hits the fan’, you’ll remember the people who were there for you. As for me, I want to keep my arms open for anyone in need, and love everyone. That is the best gift I can give.
– Michelle Davis
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